It's Been A While

Well, Valentine's Day has come and gone and aside from getting to give my wife a gift that she really wanted... it was horrible. I would like to say that when Valentine's Day approaches there is a collective SCREAM from elementary school teachers everywhere! My students were literally turing cartwheels, CARTWHEELS, down the middle of my classroom during the party. I did get a few nice gifts from my students, and Jacque gave me a nice new water bottle, yeah I know what you're thinking, but I loved it. It is something I can really use, especially since I started drinking water all the time. Besides, she did much better than last year.
I got a new student at the beginning of the week, who likes to steal things. Yeah, so I am pretty much the most paranoid person in the world right now, every time this student picks something up I worry that I will never see it again.

I know that I can't complain too much, I have a great life, but sometimes a person just needs to vent. When I don't think I can make it I think of Jacque, she is the light at the end of all my dark and scary days.

I always have what I call the theme song for my life, and Jacque is the only person who I ever really share it with. Music is really big part of my life, I connect everything to a song in some way. For example, when I hear "You and Me" by Lifehouse my mind instantly goes back to our wedding day and I see Jacque walking down the aisle and feel the same feeling I felt waiting at the front of the church trying to see her. Right now my them song is "Beyond Measure" by Jeremy Camp. The song is all about the blessings you have and how God brought them to you, and with all the stress I have been feeling I have been trying to keep this in mind.

Today was.... a Better Day!

Today was pretty good, after I got over the shock of one of my students withdrawing Friday, without my knowledge. He is a great boy, and I will really miss him, I know he is probably better off where he is going, but I wish I could have just said goodbye. I literally found out he was gone when I went to submit my attendance on the computer and it showed that I only had 21 students, not 22.
I had a great day with my other kids today. I started tutoring for TAKS today, and it seemed to go well. I am beginning to really calm down and focus, I've got my game face on!
God, blessed me today, He allowed me to see the good things instead of the bad.

So Sorry!!

I am so sorry that it has been so long since I've posted. Life has been a little bit crazy, TAKS is coming, and I can't even describe the pressure, you just have to have experienced it. I mean there are 22 students depending on me to have them ready becasue if they don't pass they don't go to 4th grade. I have had several near melt downs, but have managed to pull my self out before I completely lost it.
I have decided that my students are going to be fine, and no matter how good I am at my job, I am still a FIRST YEAR teacher. This is all part of the learning process, I just praise God that I am surrounded my amazing Godly people who are willing to help me figure it all out. Next year will be better, because I will know where I'm headed and how to get there, instead of figuring it out along the way.
I have lost ten pounds, want to know what I did...I drink at least 74 ounces of water a day. Jacque says we are like the SlimQuik commercials. I have also started eating better and will begin working out this week.
God has been showing me things about my self. For example, in church today God showed me that it was definately the right decision to step down from Praise Team and the Choir. I truly worshipped for the first time in long time today. When I was in the Choir and on Praise Team I was always consumed with making sure I was harmonizing correctly and singing the same note as everyone else, today I felt...FREE!
I am, as always falling more and more in love with my wife everyday. I hear this song by Leona Lewis, from England, that is a little weird at first, but as I listened to it I realized it is how I feel about Jacque. My heart beats with love for her, I am pretty sure that I would "bleed love" for her.
I'll try to post more often, but until next time God Bless!